Swords represent the element Air, and relate to one's intellect, intelligence, and ability to communicate with others.
In the previous suit, Cups, you have chosen your next ideal to pursue. In the Swords suit it is time to face the world and try to make this ideal a reality.
The Ace of Swords carries the number 1, and is the first chance to inventorise what challenges the world around you and the people in it will throw at you when you try to make your chosen ideal a reality.
Try not to make commitments too soon, first have a good look around to see all the actors and forces on the field.
You have to take a good look around to see what's worth pursuing earlier, and what can wait until later.
You're too negative about either or both yourself and your surroundings.